I didn’t post last weekend like I usually do. And I almost never post on a Thursday. I have a few notes scribbled on a paper with future topics for this blog. But I’m not writing about any of that.
Today is July 4, Independence Day in the United States. (Well… it’s pretty late as I’m writing this, and it’s already July 5 in most time zones in the world, but whatever.) On this date in 1776, a group of representatives led by Thomas Jefferson signed a document claiming that the British Crown had abused its power, and that the American colonies had the God-given right to free themselves from this tyranny and establish a new government.
Normally this is one of my favorite holidays of the year. Because ‘Merica, that’s why. We get to barbecue and light stuff on fire and make things explode and celebrate freedom and bald eagles and being awesome.
But this year I just wasn’t feeling it.
I’m not making a political statement. This isn’t about any opinions on the state of freedom in our country, or whether or not the Constitution is still being followed, or because of the current President or Governor, or because of who didn’t become the current President or Governor. This is just about me being tired and worn out.
It’s been a rough week. I did some physically exhausting yard work Monday, and I had an emotionally trying experience that I’d rather not say any more about yesterday. And no one invited me to anything this year ahead of time. I got an invitation to a small barbecue at the last minute, and I went, but I didn’t stick around to watch fireworks. I was home and in for the night before the fireworks started.
This isn’t normal for me. I love fireworks. I didn’t grow up watching fireworks, so for me, there is still some childlike excitement attached to fireworks. But I just feel like being alone tonight.
And that’s ok.
It’s ok to be sad and alone sometimes. I can skip fireworks for a year. Because I have freedom. Because ‘Merica, that’s why. God bless America.
I hope all of you had a happy and safe Fourth of July. And for those of you in countries where this isn’t a holiday, I hope you had a wonderful day as well.