I don’t have time.
I always have all these great creative ideas, and I don’t have time to work on all of them.
I wrote a novel off and on from 2014-18, more off than on, and it still feels like it isn’t quite finished, like there’s one part that needs to be rewritten. I started a second blog recently. I have another fictional universe I’ve done things with in various forms for over a quarter-century. And I feel like I can’t really commit to any of them.
But that’s okay. All of these projects are just for fun, and I shouldn’t stress about them. I’m not trying to make a living out of any of these creative projects. I have a real job that takes a lot of my time. But this is also the kind of real job that periodically gives me time off when I can concentrate on things like this.
So I’m just not going to worry about it. I’ll write what I can, when I can. Even if no one reads it. Because maybe when I’m an old man, I’ll look at some of my old writing that I haven’t read in decades, and I’ll get a good laugh out of it. (That actually happened recently with some poems I wrote in my late teens that have followed me from hard drive to hard drive on five different computers.)
And if any of you don’t know about my other projects and are curious, let me know. I’ll either share it, or maybe I’ll kindly thank you and explain why I’m not comfortable sharing everything with everyone.
When I got home from church this morning, one of the first things that ran through my mind was, What am I going to do with the rest of the afternoon?
A number of options went through my mind. I had about an hour and a half of grading papers that I brought home. That had to get done at some point. But that left much of the afternoon and evening still unaccounted for. So I started thinking. I have a project I’m working on in the yard little by little. I could work on that. Or I could go for a long walk and play Pokémon. Or I could go take my bike to get fixed, again. I need to find a new bike shop, again. Every single bike shop at my end of town either doesn’t exist anymore or has screwed me over in some way. The most recent one I’ve been to twice for major repairs, and both times, something went wrong again a few rides later. But that’s another story, and the bike is at least still rideable. I haven’t been riding much, though, because either I’ve been busy or it’s been raining.
But I digress.
I decided to do exactly none of these (except for grading, since that had to be done). I’ve been stressed and busy a lot lately, I have things on my mind that I need to process, and I need a day to myself to relax. So that’s what I’ve been doing. And it has been a wonderful afternoon and evening.
Happy Thanksgiving to all my USA readers, or to anyone else who wishes to take time to be thankful and celebrate family and friends.